Friday, April 18, 2008

My March 2008..

SUNDAY, 23 MARCH 2008
6th March 2008 + I love dancing +


I've just started a so-called dancing session last week. Yesterday (6 March 2008) was my second session. I had dancing class on every Thursday afternoon from 1.30 to 3 pm. It is just for fun, which is "organised" by us haha. Sukati kami bah makai room atu di buat tampat menari. The instructor is my friend. He is a Chinese guy with a great talent and ability to dance. You name it, salsa, techno, waltz, everything, he can do it . . . Like woww, professional banarrr ~

Okay since it was my second dancing class yesterday, I didn't really have any difficulty to try out the moves compared to my first time. Hehe. The first time was suckkkss. Karau wah hahaha. Basically to sum up, dancing is not easy. Not even the basic steps. Yesterday I had an improvement in my moves. Hehe. Yeaayy. Hafal udah steps nya, yatah sanang.

We dance according to the DVD's being played on a projector. Haha. Abis projector urg, kami pakai :p We learn "Salsa" dancing. You need to move your hips and legs a lot here. Yatah sanggal punggung. Hehe. Mun mau punggung melantik, haha... Join us.. Ahakz!

Naleh lah kemarin pasal steps nya makin laju. Hehe. But I enjoyed it, really. I had a great time wit my bestfrens. It was a bit tiring though, but it's truly worth it.
Anyways masa awal2 atu, kami kan menari Waltz. But yeah, as you know, Waltz need to be danced wit a partner right. Yatah c Kim (instructor) kan demostrate saja nari Waltz atu wit me. Sekali kan, mesti jua lagi bepegang behapa tu. Haha. Ia pegang tangan ku, I was ok wit it. Ganya part ia megang maluk belakang ku atu tah yang ku "tungkal" haha. Mcm cacing kepanasan bahh ulah ku haha. Cali cali. Ketawa2 saja ku... Asal saja ia maluk, gerenti ku belari haha. "Kim....inda ku mau..inda ku mau.." haha nyangku. Antah, galak rasa ku wah hehe. Muka lagi tepaksa face to face menari. Ampir tah lagi. Mun menari cematu sama boyfren kah, mana saja tah ku. Pebaik tah melakat muka atu hahaha. Ani....dgn my classmate...aduii galak ehh. Hehe.
NOTE: taken from Rabi


+ Today, 12th January 2008 +

Our plan didn't turn out well today. It was supposed to be me, Mizah, Mirah, Sal and Shidah. But then, Mirah, Mizah and Sal couldn't make it. Then that left me and Shidah. Sigh. Inda apalah. So kami dua tah saja.

At lunch time, Shidah picked me up at home. Nda tau kan lunch di mana. Pusing2 Qlap. Haha. Last2 ke Andaman Restaurant tia plg. Haha. Kes inda tau ke mana kan di tuju. Well, I had Butter Chicken and Garlic Fried Chicken. Tell you what, the food was not bad either. Nyaman jua lah. I thought the place was huge. But damit rupanya. Yang membari sanak, the waiter lelaki atu liat2. Mcm urg inda pernah meliat bini2 saja. Napa kah ia.
NOTE: ME refers to Rabi

My January 2008..

WEDNESDAY, 09 JANUARY 2008
Simple bravis!


Oh antah ah.. Batah dh panya nda beupdate blog ani.. Apa ertinya tu ah? Whahaha.. Bnarnya busy bnar ku wah..

Finally, my sis wed selesai sdh.. Siuk plg tym sibuk-sibuk atu coz rmai wa cuzens dtg umah.. Durg tido umah jua.. I miss them now..

Yatah thanks to my lifetime best friend coz dtg msa my sis's function atu.. Thanks Ejah, Cd, Nicole, Apeez, Gebz and Amal.. Paris i know if u were around, sure thing u'll attend the function too.. Nah, i miss u too.. Bth dh nda online eh.. Btw, tried to call ur UK line few days ago but kaja the operator thingie, nda bsubscribe kali.. Ehehe.. Lupa eh..

Apart from my sis Wed, last sunday my ex galfie kawin jua.. Awal ya kawin ah.. I didnt go to her place plg.. Busy that day..

Msa last friday my A+ friend, mijah engaged wa.. Atu pun nda ku dpt dtg.. Padahal only selected friend sja yg kna invite wa..

Last saturday, organised this so called hangout with Lez. Tapi nda rmai yg turn up wa.. It was held at Manjaro Restaurant.. Pcaya, Mai yg suruh organise p ia yg nda dpt dtg.. And ia langsung nda inform Lez.. Haiya!!

Then mlm went to Ahan Thai Jubilee.. Ntah ah, this lately aku kn mkn luar sja.. Mkn luar and liat movie sja.. Yatah, i've done something crazy wa.. Sakit!!

Owh, byk g kn ku ceta ani bnarnya p ntah ah.. Btw, i lyk that person.. Dear author.. Its u..

My December 2007..

FRIDAY, 21 DECEMBER 2007
relationship..


Relationship is very fragile.. we cannot sit back and relax at any time and say "my relationship is fine, and i dont have to give to it anymore"

It is very vital for the partner to be attentive to the relationship.. In order to make the relationship last longer, honesty is very important.. It is the key factor to maintain a good relationship.. Notice that i did not say a perfect relationship.. Everyone has his/her imperfections and for that, we must have realistic expectations as to what a relationship ought to be..

Most importantly is that, we must pursue harmony in the relationship.. Do our part to strengthen the relationship.. Of course, our parner's has her/his own part too..
It takes two to make a couple..


TUESDAY, 04 DECEMBER 2007
In love with..


Am so in love with these songs:

1. Love to be loved by you..
this Marc Terenzi`s song meant something very meaningful to me.. well, i`v been looking for this song for months already now, and i only manage to download the song sometime last two weeks and eversince then i made this song as my ringtone music.. i simply love this song.. somebody that used to stalk love this song actually..

being not an English songs fan, i dont have the idea what this song is at the first place.. then "Sept" told me its a song.. am simply bad.. aint i?

there is this one time that i googled up the lyric.. i love the chorus part very much..

it goes like this:
Baby, tell me how can i tell u, that i love u more than life..
show me how can i show u, that am blinded by ur light..
touch me, can i touch u, to find out the dream is true..
i love to be loved by u..

whahaha.. it there is mistake in the lyric.. please forgive me..

2. Song by Rascal Flatts..
Am not really sure the title of the song actually but it is the one with "somebody" in it..

a friend of mine told me that the name of the song is somebody is me.. but when i tried to download the song, it wasnt in the list.. please help me to look for this song please.. i really want it badly..

it is not that my friend dont have the song. its just that it was in her CD.. am so not good in burning song from CD.. please help me..

Ok, actually am not in a mood here.. will update again some other time.. thanks..

UPDATED:
No wonder i cant even google up the song.. actually it isnt sang by Rascal Flatts.. ehehehe but it is by Enrique Iglasias..

Here is the lyric:
You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I refell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you were somebody else

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night taht our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[CHORUS]
Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me
That Somebody's Me


Tuesday, 04 December 2007
somebody is me!!


life is getting hectic this lately, one thing for sure its not only because of the upcoming wedding of my sis.. but its ok, ibelieve that what life is all about..
talking about life, there are beauty and the pathetic part of life.. why in the world, the time i felt that am loved by someone.. and that moment wont last very long.. is this something very normal for a relationship? i believe its not normal, otherwise people wont say that aim for having a relationship is to share the lifetime together..

why is it almost very difficult for people to find true love? maybe at the first place there are just few people know the meaning of true love.. or perhaps in this boundry-less world, the term true love is not exist anymore? i just dont understand..
or maybe i expect too mch from my partner and resulting it to end so shortly.. i dont want this to happen.. i learned from my past that to some extend am a lil bit full jealousy and i`ve tried my best to avoid that in this relation but again aint it enough? gosh!! please help me..

looking on the bright side i know i should not blame 'love' for that matter coz if love is to be blamed, there will never be good loving partner out there.. most loving couple to me is my Mamma Mirah and Babah Apiz.. i want to be just like them..
But what happened to me now is that, my relation with my love one is so unstable.. for wahtsoever reason am so stress about this.. please help me to enlight this burden.. lets share it, the way we used to share it..

lovee.. i know this relation will work.. that is if..


SUNDAY, 02 DECEMBER 2007
have i said enough?


Holla everyone.. its been so while that i didnt update this blog of mine.. again as usual, i have a lot of things to be shared with all my blog readers (though i know its only me and those people who cares about me check and read my blog only)..

if i am not mistaken its almost a week now that i dont update my blog.. i must say that am busy sometime to update my blog.. sometime its not that am busy, was just lazy to do an update.. and some other time, i simply dont have the mean on how to update my blog (due to the fact that i have no internet connection at home)

Babah, pasang e-speed wa drumah.. i want.. whahaha,, as if my dear father read my blog.. as a matter of fact i dont really think that my dad know what blog is.. ehehehehe.. sorry dad..

Owh i miss my mum now.. am not really sure why.. couple nights ago i spend hours with my mum and my lovely sis.. we talked about so many things.. my sis kn hinting sja..
My lil bro Dauz kn bolah sja,, ada sja kn dbuatnya.. he is so annoyingly lovable.. ntah eyh, but annoying lah most of the time..

On the other hand, my bro Opie (Opy) pun tym ni bolah tia jua.. eversince ia ada hp ani, kpisan wa.. nda pernah berengang wa dgn hpnya ah.. whahahaha..

Okay, enough of sharing my family updates.. but again, i have a happy news here i have a new niece.. yesterday ia lahir.. ehehehe.. the baby is so sweet.. i like..
Lets talk about my love then.. i love u so much.. i know i`ve been not a good lover to u.. but am still trying.. now am so busy and i simply have no time to see u.. its not that i dont make an effort to see u but i simply cant..

how i wish it is done in a much different way..

btw, am glad if u can make ur self happy without my existence..

Why its almost never u start the whole thing? but again am glad to have u.. i dont and will not blame u on anything,, the faults must be from the both of us.. otherwise.. oh i`v said enough..

My November 2007..

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FRIDAY, 23 NOVEMBER 2007
My ex is getting MARRIED!!


Hey people of the world.. my ex is getting married.. am happy for her decision.. hope that he is the right guy.. not perfect but the right one..

Thanks for the invitation.. i`ll try my best to be there.. btw, all the best of luck for this semester exam..

Your ex..
Faiz-HS..


WEDNESDAY, 21 NOVEMBER 2007
GOSH!! What should i do?


Batah udh inda buat posting yg bnar-bnar posting ani.. busy sja wa.. nada msa kn update those things with u guys.. ntah.. so many things happened to me.. but am glad for all that..

First and foremost i would like to congratulate that particular someone for the nikah.. wishing u all the best of luck.. i will always remember u.. no worries.. whahaha.. *julur*

Then, at this particular moment Bykri nada dBrunei.. Ia valik Kuching coz his sister kawin this weekend.. the same day the particular someone sanding wa.. *julur lagi*
20th November.. apa ada ah? ntah lah.. ehehehe.. *kn kenang deh hari itu*

Ntah.. lupa dh apa kn d post ani bnar nya.. luan batah d param wa.. owh yes.. last Sunday went to Sabri wedding.. siok but inda siok.. luan bprotokol wa.. whahaha..
Btw, tym ni tais liur kn bali iPod Apple Classic tapi nada duit.. so what should i do? minta sponsor baik eyh..

Sapa mau sponsor? whahaha.. just text me ah, if ada yg kn sponsor atu..
Till then seeya!!


WEDNESDAY, 14 NOVEMBER 2007
11 Januari~


Elo.. i never heard this song but again someone used to be so special to me ask me to google up this song.. actually this is the date of that someone`s birthday.. 11th January, 2007.. Whahaha..

Dear do take care of urself..

11 Januari bertemu
menjalani kisah cinta ini
naluri berkata,
engkaulah milikku
bahagia selalu dimiliki
bertahun menjalani bersamamu
kunyatakan bahwa
engkaulah jiwaku
Akulah penjagamu
Akulah pelindungmu
Akulah pendampingmu
Di setiap langkah-langkahmu
Pernah ku menyakiti hatimu
Pernah kau melupakan janji ini
semua karena kita ini
manusia
Akulah penjagamu
Akulah pelindungmu
Akulah pendampingmu
Di setiap langkah-langkahmu
Kau bawa diriku
Ke dalam hidupmu
Kau basuh diriku
Dengan rasa sayang
Senyummu juga sedihmu
Adalah hidupku
Kau sentuh cintaku
dengan lembut, dengan sejuta warna
Kau bawa diriku
Ke dalam hidupmu
Kau basuh diriku
Dengan rasa sayang
Senyummu juga sedihmu
Adalah hidupku
Kau sentuh cintaku
dengan lembut, dengan sejuta warna
11 Januari bertemu
menjalani kisah cinta ini
naluri berkata
engkaulah milikku

Will try to look up for the song later..


TUESDAY, 13 NOVEMBER 2007
From someone`s Bulletin Board


1. To My Friends Who Are SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly.. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.. So take your time and choose the best..

2.To My Friends Who Are NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

3 .To My Friends Who Are PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart . Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways..

4.To My Friends Who Are MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry ." Not "where are you", but "I'm right here." Not "how could you", but "I understand." Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."

5.To My Friends Who Are ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.

6.To My Friends Who Are HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

7.T o My Friends Who Are NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understan d and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

8.To My Friends Who Are POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

9.To My Friends Who Are AFRAID TO CONFESS
L ove hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

10.To My Friends Who Are STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go..

11.TO ALL MY FRIENDS
My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong , mature , never-changing, uplifting, protective, encou raging, rewarding and unselfish.

ANYWAY I WISH U ALL A GOODLUCK!!


SATURDAY, 10 NOVEMBER 2007
6ixth Sense - Tak Bisa Memilihmu


Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya
Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah
Darimu,Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku,
Untuk cintainya,
Hatiku pun inginkannya,
Hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu
Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku….

C/O
Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu
Karena kuterhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang
Didalam hatiku tuk mencintainya…
(terhanyut jiwa ini,terjatuh dihatinya)


WEDNESDAY, 07 NOVEMBER 2007
Things that i learn today..


Today i talked with Bykri and there so much things that i`ve learn.. whahaha.. there are three important words in every relationship.. i know i should put those words here but again for everyone benefits i would love to share to all my blog readers what are those words..

first thing first is that the one most important word is the term TRUST!!

well trust is very essential in any relationship.. in order to make the relationship works, one must trust the partner`s.. with trust the partner will feel comfortable to share anything with the love one.. thus by doing so, there will be almost nothing to be hide from the partner..

but without the existence of this TRUST, a relationship wont last very long.. its is so true.. so if u`r thinking that there is less TRUST in ur relationship try to regain the TRUST from ur love one..

The second word is TAKE CARE..

as for this word i have cover it in earlier posting of mine so i wont touch about it agin here.. so try to read my previous posting!!

The third word is that 'I LOVE U"..

but again its so different now.. sometime people just say it without really mean it.. *worthless*

to some extend there also people who almost never say that three words.. i believe it is so difficult and sometime i know the lover would expect the love to at least say it once.. but again, what important most is that they do show their love in other possible ways..

Owh, i`ll re-post this posting another time.. am short of time actually.. mwahahaha..


MONDAY, 05 NOVEMBER 2007
My weekend!!


Elo and hy!! am planning to write a so-called long posting here coz its being long i didnt post anything about me here.. well actually i would just me and my life since that last thursday maybe.. whahaha..

I`ve been so busy this lately.. i dont even have time for 'me' or as what my new friend regarded as 'me' time.. kahkahkah.. isn`t it refering to the same thing? well i dont realli care.. this is my blos so i have the right to decide what to call it.. even if i wanted to call this PC as a kitchen pun i still have the right to do so.. Biarin deh~~

Well actually last Wednesday i was supposed to watch movie with this one friend but unfortunately it has to be postponed as that friend of mine wanted to watch different movie.. so i let him to decide..

He told me that he`ll be there with a friend of him so i plan to bring Bykri with me.. whahaha.. So early the next day that friend of mine, called me and wanted me to booked for our seats tonight.. so as being requested i called the The Mall and booked for 4 seats..

On the Thursday night it self we had our so-called dinner at Manjaro Restaurant.. GOSH!! it was my first time there and the environment of the place was not bad.. i kinda love the environment.. But sad to say in term of pricing.. it is way too much.. Trust me i wont go there again unless kna blanja.. Mahal eyh!! A glass of Tea tarik for $2.50? i rather go to somewhere more standard.. at least value for money.. Despite the fact that the give this 15% disc for the Headstarts cardholder`s yet again its expensive..

Soon after that we went to the Mall but nada parking so we parked somewhere near to the Hypermart.. jauh jua tu.. nyalih ku jalan eyh!! Nasib sja ku mls kn parking d basement atu.. ehehehe..

Then bru kn ambil the tickets but our tickets had been sold!! sakit jua hati tu but then ada tia 4 seats atu arh B and C row.. 2 on the B row and another 2 on the C row.. It were booked tapi aku pajal the guy arh the counter napa that tickets ia nda jual.. sasax ya kali so he sold the tickets to me.. Kan aku ni pmajal.. whahaha..
FYI we were watching this claimed to be the scariest vampire movie for the year 2007.. dui it was boring.. inda ku paham napa it was claimed to be the scariest.. inda pun ku takut banarnya.. tapi i did shout plg.. ntah eyh!! apakan? i know Bykri senyum ni baca my posting ani.. APAKAN? NAPAKAN? KAMVANG EYH~~

Lapas liat wyg tu that friend of mine gave me a call ia.. ntah ia ah.. btw as being mentioned earlier kn my friend atu bwa his friend, yatah the friend rupanya so-called my friend arh friendster.. Damit wa Brunei ni.. then he commented something..

i quote: "ah hah! finally met u in person last thursday but wasn't exactly sure. Neway, thanx for the somehow "kinda-belanja-u-will-tagih-it-next-time" liat movie di mall gadong ah, bah...next time if ever u bawa si mr ihsan atu, then it will be on him! next time man... "

Buleh lagi ia ckap jumpa me but not exactly sure.. napa nda sure atu? eyh.. he`s a nice guy though!!

Mls ckap byk about that night it was so memorable and i can still remember every bits of it.. Yes!! every bits of it.. Bykri thanks for sending me home that morning..

Then that friday morning i woke up a lil bit late and then had my breakfast at Angrek Desa thingie.. mkan soto.. kna lanja.. then that afternoon, i went to KB.. Then we were so busy bkaja wa sna ah.. Pkul 6 bru th selesai smua wa.. Then singgah arh Nasi Ayam KB, the one next to KFC.. kana lanja lagi yo!! suka jua ku tu.. then msa on the way dri KB atu tetido ku wa.. ehehehe.. cian durg cHamiz & Zul..

The next day i went to KB again for the Raya with the special children.. urm.. i danced with the Jollibee mascots.. kiut wa the mascot ah.. *i`ll upload the photo next time*

After the function slesai me and friends were jalan around the KB town.. siuk lahh.. But everyone was eager to go home coz later that night we have an invitation from HSBC at Rizqun..

That night was kinda boring at first.. lame wa.. baik jua makananya nyaman.. free jua lagi.. then rumours yg mengatakan ada Anuar Zain atu banar wa.. He was there.. He sang 6 of his song, including the new Lelaki ini.. i might upload his picture.. we have no chance to take photo with him.. Its kinda formal wa and i dont have the guts to spoil the whole event..

Then yesterday, Sunday i got the chance to go to Huda`s open houz.. siuk lah.. i met my A+ Friends.. baik th dsebut nama durg ani.. batah dh nda sebut nama durg dlm my blog ani.. eheheh..

There were Qmah & Edin, Michelle, Mirah, Raman & Puteh, K-rul & Zatol, Jamz & Boifee.. siuk lah.. mwahahaha.. i love u all..


SUNDAY, 04 NOVEMBER 2007
Commitment?


Commitment? Due to the existence of individual differences, the men and the women might define the same term differently..

He says:
"I have her now so i wont see other girl at the same time"

She says:
"I have him now.. He will marry me.. I will love him forever.. We will have a big family"

Notice the difference?
But again, some men do see "COMMITMENT", the same way how the women do..
Appreciate your love one!!

My Oct 2007..

TUESDAY, 30 OCTOBER 2007
A Random Post!!


Trust me!! Believe Me!! At this particular moment, i dont really have something to share about.. Owh i just go blog-hopping and i found some interesting posting by the some of the bloggers.. Urm, as a matter of fact i did bookmarked some of the blog.. when i say blog it refers to the blogspot and not the friendster weblog..

Owh, i just love to read what people views on certain things.. not to educational yet very informative.. one thing people should know about me is that i love to read!! really am.. sometime i just can spend hours just for reading time (usually before my bed time).. blogs about relationship.. about life..

some of my friends to have their own blogspot too.. me? oh despite the facts that i`ve posted almost 100 posting (exaggeration!!), i myself has no blogspot of my own.. i just dont know how to do it.. whahaha.. maybe the fact that i have no internet connection back at home.. *sighs*

I might be thinking to have one maybe.. but has to think about it first.. Btw, there is also people who prefer to do photo-bloging rather than doing the blog it self..
I quote: "I love taking pics and do photo blogs rather than doing the blog itself! I dislike typing every single details of the particular event hahaha~"

Oh.. as being mentioned earlier i`v viewed someone`s weblog and he in his posting discuss about SECOND OPTION!! whahaha.. Interesting!! aint it?

I quote: it is something very rare to find someone who truly loves u and willing to be the second and doing anything possible under the sky just to be with u.. sounds familiar?

Then he did asked: what would u do if u are no longer with her and she gets a new boifee but actually still into u but pretending to not love u lagi.. whahaha..
blablablabla.. enough~

GOSH!! aint this post is so random?


MONDAY, 29 OCTOBER 2007
CARE!!


Sometimes, i'm not sure that i'm all u've got..
Sometimes, i'm not sure if u love me or not..
One thing i know: i CARE for u..

And the one thing that i want is that, u care for me too..

"TAKE CARE" CARE is the sweetest form of LOVE, so when anyone says 'TAKE CARE', it is

as good as saying: "I'll keep u in my heart till its very last beat.. Take care"
Hope that u noticed that i do really care for u..


FRIDAY, 26 OCTOBER 2007
My Day..


Owh today, despite the fact that i went home very late last night i woke up so early.. i dont know what really happened to me but i must say i cant sleep due to the fact that am thinking of a particular someone..

Why should i be thinking of that person? i went online but that particular someone is not on my online list.. *sighs*

So i listened to some songs that i recently downloaded and GOSH i dedicate two of the songs for that person.. i must say that i cant stop thinking of u now.. i know!! I KNOW the fact that i need to move on but i simply cant..

Whahaha.. Just as a matter of sharing the two songs are Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu by Republik and the second song is Tak Bertepi by Matta Band..

Btw, last night me and my Lifetime Best Friend went for a wi-fi-ing session at Easyway, Serusop.. There were the four of us.. The usual 3 plus Apeez!!

As far as i am concerned that night i was so HIGH!! i dont mean HIGH as in HIGH but HIGH-lahh.. Very the hyper that night.. shhh.. i look very bida that night.. I dont really care tho..

After the wi-fi-ing session we went to May`s place.. whahaha.. Kn liat DVD tapi inda jadi.. we ended up updating the storage of our pictures.. GOSH!! took more photos also..

Btw, by chance i showed them my A+ friends pictures and they were saying that am more into them than them.. *sighs* i kinda regret showing them those pictures but again to some extend am glad that i did..

They were so sarcastic like *lawa eyh, dapat d DASH ni

i know it was merely a joke between me and my Lifetime Best Friends but somehow it hurts..

Ok, gtg now.. need to make my move.. seeya.. will updat this blog again soon.. Take Care..


THURSDAY, 25 OCTOBER 2007
6 Questions!!


1. Where would you go on a first date if you would wanted to impress him/her?
owh i am simply lost!! i dont know.. perhaps a simple nice place that is not too exclusive.. why? am not sure.. maybe, just maybe that is the way that i can show the real me..

2. Stupidest/craziest thing you've ever done to impress someone you like?
*sighs* whoa am not a stalker but GOSH!! i stalked that person like heaven.. tried my best to know that person.. but in the end, that person is in a relationship with a person that i know preety well.. *wishing them the best of luck for their love-life*

3. What was your most expensive splurge in the last 6 months?
most expensive? what is expensive? i believe i need a dictionary for this..
NOTHING!! am a regular guy who dont need expensive stuffs to look nice!!

4. What is the last sms in your phone?
"hey.. how r u? wat r u doing now" - it was from Bykri.. then i give him a short call and he talked something that is so sweet.. i love..
btw, we will go for a horror movie this Sunday..

5. Ultimate dream job?
to be with my love - if any

6. If your blind date was a complete turn-off, how would you end the night?
Whahaha.. A complete turn-off? cian jua that person.. how bad can the person be?


TUESDAY, 23 OCTOBER 2007
Most Memorable Songs!!


MOST MEMORABLE SONGS!! As at 22nd October 2007.. Every song has their own memories to me..

1. I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing : Singing Session with my Life Best Friends, days before Paris went back to UK.. *SIGHS*

Despite the fact that we are not a great singer but it wasnt that bad either..

2. Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu: Owh at first i dont like this song.. its very difficult for me to attach to a song that i dont really sure of the lyrics so as usual i google the lyric.. then i found its a nice song..

3. Like a Tatoo: Bykri dedicated this song to me.. its just so funny.. lyric-wise i love it too.. it reminds me of the 1st song that Bykri dedicated me.. "Preety Boy"

4. What If: Whahaha.. This happens recently on the 9th Shawal.. On the way to beraya-ing, my Life Best Friends Jan & May sang this song.. we put this song on the repeat mode.. as am not familiar with this song, so i just keep my mouth shut.. ehehehe..

Interestingly, i carefully listened to the lyric and somehow it makes me thinking of someone.. "What if we were wrong"

5. All Over Again: Someone dedicated the song for me.. that someone keep on giving a mix signals.. am confused.. btw the same person did dedicate another song for me that is "True"

Check it out..


SUNDAY, 21 OCTOBER 2007
Raya-ing!!


This post will be a bit too long as this is the stories about me and my life time best friends.. Owh, i bet i have to mention here that though there were only the three of us like always but the spirits of being best friends will and always be with us.. There were Jan, Me and May..

Owh.. am glad that this lately we are bonding together again.. i just have no reason why i really like it.. or should i say i love it so much.. whaha.. FUN!! GREAT!! CRAZY!! The three of us had plan for this one like right before the raya itself but sad (but glad) it only can happen on the 9th day of raya or should i call it syawal with the capital S? oh it it Syawal or Shawal? am just confused!!

Wait a sec, ada calendar rupanya dpn PC ani.. Bah tunggu kajap ah.. whahaha.. OH guys it SYAWAL.. that is as per DST calendar of course.. hahaha...

So yesterday May picked me up at my place then we heading to Jan`s house.. whoa.. ada mee kna msak kn.. i love it.. ntah i did mention its either the food is good or am so lapar.. LAPAR!! that is so typical me..

Then kami jln to Bykri`s place.. we were not beraya-ing there though.. Ia nda mau jumpa coz ia bru bangun tido.. Kamvang eyh!! Then May and Me keep on teasing Jan, that we were to go to Prince MIA house.. Remember Prince MIA from our stalking session? Hahahaha..

Yes!! the same Prince MIA.. Siok eyh the house.. I love it so much.. Bulieh dsna May and Me byk bgamvar.. the house is big.. urm huge.. lawa.. So BEAUTIPOOL!! msa dsna Jan malu-malu wa..

Then we went to Ruzai`s place.. Open house.. Aku mkn byk lagi.. i like eyh.. then my best friends were saying that payah ni kn diet if sama si Sal.. whahaha.. there were saying that every time spent with me is like their eating time.. suka jua ku tu.. its a COMPLIMENT!!

Ruzai makanan mu nyaman.. spagg mu nyaman.. rojak mu nyaman.. kami bgambar jua arh umah mu.. whahaha.. suka ku eyh!! aku heran, ko dramatik p pmalu eyh!!

Then kami ke arh umah CD d Angrekk area.. whoa bulieh ku dsna mcm kna interview uleh d mother.. hahaha.. and by chance the mother know my parents.. BOTH of my parents.. capie eyh.. The mother know May`s parents jua..

Then we went to May`s soon to be husband house.. hahaha.. *aku jelez pakah* Yatah ku mls ckap panjang-panjang ani.. ;P

Then kami ke umah Yanah.. My close friend ni.. whahaa.. bulieh lagi kami langgar sja umahnya.. ia suruh kmi dtg mlm bnarnya.. hahaha.. biar tia eyh.. Sorri Yan!!
Pastu kami ke rumah cHARM!! whahaha.. :P *am so speechless*

Arh umah Mirah!! Wow!! i love every moment i was there.. i feel like home wa.. *that is the place i did my revision and did my cooking session*

Then we went to March`s place.. siok eyh!! we were like so gila there.. sioklh.. taking photos again and again.. i LOVE!!

I spend my night with Bykri.. Beraya with him.. *siok plg p kajap ja*
Owh i received a shocking news last night but i sort of like it..

Catch ya up some other time.. Busy wa.. Working time..
Note: Photos will be uploaded soon!!


SATURDAY, 20 OCTOBER 2007
All Over Again?


You've been alone
You've been afraid
I've been a fool
In so many ways
But I would change my life
If you thought you might try love me
So please give me another chance
To write you another song
Take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over again
I'm not a saint
I'm just a man
Who let heaven and earth in the palm of his hand
But I threw it away
So now I stand here today asking forgiveness
And if you could just
Please give me another chance
To write you another song
Take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over again
Little girl, you're all I've got
Don?t you leave me standing here once again
Cause I'll give you my life (yes I would)
If you would let me try to love you
So please give me another chance
To write you another song
And take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over again
Again oh
No no
oh oh
You know I love you (yeah)
Give me one more chance
No No
No No No No


THURSDAY, 18 OCTOBER 2007
Is it ME?


In term of LOVE commitment:
Someone who is very loyal in the relationship.. Might look tough but very fragile inside.. Someone who strongly believes that in order to make the relationship works, lots to be done.. There is no short-cuts..

Others might say that do nice things for the love ones then there wont be problems on the relationship.. Its partly true, but til when?

Am not saying that its not good to do nice things for our love ones, but to me its way not enough.. Its unfair!! To some extend it look really FAKE!!

I must say here that i dont need a FAKE LOVER!!

So, what on earth am suggesting for, for a good relationship? Ehehe.. DO THINGS TOGETHER!!

I strongly believes that is the way it should be.. Dont u?

Make ur love ones to be part of the decision making process.. Try to consider their views on things.. Then u'll know whether they can see things, the way u see things..
If the both of u, cant see things in a same way then try to figure it out.. But having some differences is not a bad indication either..

Lets do things together!!

Everything fades with time but our memories are nail-ed in my heart.. Eventhough you've lost my heart's key, you can still find it and unlock the heart.. Let's do things n see things together.. Compromise each other and be extra patience and trustworthy to each other..

Dont leave me coz i can no longer bare the misery of being a helpless lonely person..

UPDATED!!

grateful to have you but sadly enough we are separated by distance. But dont worries. i'll spread my wings and fly to your place. Let's see and experience things together as we fly.


SUNDAY, 07 OCTOBER 2007
Another Updates


Owh!! Hari Raya is just around the corner and am not ready for that.. i dont know why, its just that i can feel that raya nowadays is no longer fun!! am not so excited to celebrate the upcoming raya.. its not that am not looking forward for it, but........

Not long time ago, i waited for raya very much!! like raya is the only time i can go shopping.. buying new baju.. new long pants.. new songkok.. new samping.. new cara melayu.. new shoes.. new slippers.. almost everything is new.. i still remember that old days, my family and i looking for "raya" things.. it was FUN!! but as i grew
older, that events is no longer part of my me..

i kinda missed all those days.. i used to spend most of my time with my family.. but now? what happened?

as i grew older and older, its rare enough for me to go out with my family.. maybe just maybe, i go out with them for family dinner out only (which only happens once a month, during pay day).. its okay..

anyways alking about this raya preparation.. i dont buy so many things actually.. maybe work commitment stops me from spending my time for shopping.. but am proud to say that this year, i managed to steal some time to have a baking lesson at my best friend, Iza's place.. it was so FUN!!

Owh, worth to mention that i`ve been having a very good friendship with her.. have stop at her place for so many times already but shocking enough it was the first day ever the Mother (Ummi) talk to me.. for god sake, i love it!! now am officially certified as the best friend..

Owh talking about best friend.. am glad to have them.. *reali am*

List of my Lifetime bestfriends in random order (u know in what order)..
1. Gebz
2.
3. Nicole
4.
5. Ejah
6. June
7.
8.
9.
10.
11.
12.

whahaha.. i believe the list will never be updated again (hopefully).. mwahz..
i love u all.. trust me, i miss u all so much!!

My September 2007..

SUNDAY, 30 SEPTEMBER 2007
2nd Updates: all about life..


Urm that day i skipped my work just to spend more quality time with my life bestfriends..

June gave me a call the day before that asking whether i would be free for movie which i immidiately agreed..

So on the day itself, we watched this movie: The Invasion.. Actually i dont really like it but May found the movie interesting.. Nice at least.. I scream some part of the movie.. Whahaha..

The son Oliver is so sweet.. I like~ After watching the movie, we (Jan, March, April, May, June and Uhuk) we did some window shoping and guess what? There was this Turkish guy chasing after us.. Or should i say, chasing just one of us.. The turkish guy made a short self-introduction to March.. Whoa.. Rugged eyh.. But whahaha.. It ended up that the turkish guy interested in January..

He said: "beautiful chinese look girl" Owh..

Siuk eyh!! Where on earth does he get the guts tn make that move.. I salute u, Mr. Turkish Guy!!

Then we went to have our so-called quick dinner at KFC, The Mall.. Did i ever mentioned that i really dont like that place.. Rate: 35 out of 100.. There is room for improvements especially on the customer service area.. The servers (both the waiters & waitresses) are of annoying type, lacking of ethics.. Dont they have guidelines on the Do's and Dont's? What do u feel, when while trying to have a great time with a not so mouth-watering dishes, the waiters keep on staring at u.. Dont stare, while people is eating.. That is RUDE..

Anyway, that day i spent a bit more time with May because i picked and escorted her.. Love all of ya my life bestfriend.. Mwahz..


FRIDAY, 28 SEPTEMBER 2007
A Wonderful Person!!


Owh gosh!! am running out of time actually but again i want to share this short posting with all my dear friendstermate..

Am currently seeing someone now.. am glad to have that person, coz i now i
can move on with life.. Best of all, now i can see a new world through that
person eye`s.. isnt that nice..

Take Care..


THURSDAY, 27 SEPTEMBER 2007
BETTER OFF SEPARATED!!


well dear reader, i kinda lyk this song at the moment.. am touched the the very first tym i heard the song.. maybe just maybe, i can relate the song with my past.. why should am talking about the past if now i can see a better world.. perhaps its so true that the ocean is blue..

The lyric goes lyk this.. Mwahaha.. ;)

Ohh no no no no,
If love was a bird, then we wouldn't have wings,
If love was a sky, we'd be blue,
If love was a choir, you and I could never sing,
Cuz love isn't for me and you
If love was an oscar, you and I could never win,
Cuz we could never act out our parts
If love is the bible, then we are lost in sin,
Cuz it's not in our hearts
So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life
And I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well
And I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off...seperated
If love was a fire, then we have lost the spark,
Love never felt so cold
If love was the light, then we're lost in the dark,
Left with no one to hold
If love was a sport, we're not on the same team,
You and i are destined to lose
If love was an ocean, then we are just a stream,
Cuz love isn't for me and you
Why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life
And I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well
And I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off...seperated
Girl I know we had some good times,
It's sad but now, we gotta say goodbye,
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny,
You can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I,
I know it hurts, so much but it's best for us,
Somewhere along this windy road you know we lost the trust,
So I'll walk away, so you don't have to see me cry,
It's killing me, so, why don't you go
Why don't you go your way (ohhh)
And I'll go mine (baby)
Live your life (ooo)
And I'll live mine (I'll live mine)
Baby you'll do well (I'll be fine)
And I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off, so much better off
Go your way (Go your way)
And I'll go mine (I'll go mine)
Live your life (Your life)
I'll live mine
You'll do well (ohh hoo)
And I'll be fine
Cuz we're better off, soooo much beeeeetter off
So much better off...
Seperated

I'm sorry we didn't make it


SUNDAY, 23 SEPTEMBER 2007
Updates: all about life..


Owh, i know that some might say that i've not updates my blog for quite sometime now.. Its not that i dont want to, or have no time to but i did few attempts to post but it ended up either NOT DISPLAYED or NOT SAVE.. It just wasted my 1 cent to the drain.. Whahaha..

Starting with September 10th Monday.. Its just a plain normal Monday.. Feel so lazy to wake up so early, ended up i was over-slept.. *sorry for coming late, thou it was partly done with purpose*

Tuesday, 11th September.. It was my sis Hana graduation day.. Congrats sis, deep inside me i said to my self that i want to be just like u.. I used to tell others that we're twins.. *so child-minded me at that particular time*

Had breakfast with some managers that morning.. We plan to have it at the International Convention Center/Centre (ICC) Restaurant but sad to say that the restaurant has stopped their operation due to the fasting month.. Shh.. Why on earth do they have to close so early? It wasnt puasa yet.. For god sake, the 'so-called religious people" will only cite the moon later that afternoon.. That the que for us to quest for another restaurant..

Finally, we ended up having our breakfast at Ministry of Finance.. F.Y.I the canteen is operated by the RBC restaurant.. While having our breakfast there was group of young officer next to our table.. Guess what? They pay for our food.. So nice of them.. But of course one of the officer is my friend old friend.. Whahaha.. Thanks for the food anyway..

After that we went to TelBru to meet this officer named, Mohd. Rushdi.. Discuss about few things *it takes almost 30 mins* Whoa, todays officer is so young.. Am not just talking about government officers who work at the office only, the same goes to todays teachers, doctors and engineers.. Am proud to be Bruneian..

As for lunch, had my lunch at Nyonya Delima Satu/Serusop.. There were 7 of us, i ordered the package of 5 Dimsum, a plate of fried rice and a can of pepsi *they dont haue coke*

The food was okay $88.40 for 7 people, considered OKAY but i kinda dont like the way they serve the customers:

1. They take order way too fast..
2. They dont repeat the order..
3. They take so long like 10 mins to get our bill *if u dont know how to total up the
bill, let me do it for u*

Btw, i met my crazy best friend, Rabi there.. I was to take photo with her but my phone got busted.. *sighs, mayb some other time darling* Btw, Rabi told me that am gaining weight.. I must agree with u darling.. :P

Listened to the radio that evening, it was announce nationwide that, the moon cant be cited.. Therefore, thing for sure Thursday would be the First day of Ramadhan for this year.. Happy fasting to everyone..


SUNDAY, 16 SEPTEMBER 2007
Staying at OGH..


This posting doesnt mean to be short but from today onwards i might just update my blog using my hp.. *sighs*

Owh someone texted me, asking when actually the stalking class.. Actually it was last 8th September..

A day after that, my friend invited me to his room at OGH.. There were 4 of us: Amir, Sufian, Hisham & me.. Siox la dat night.. Mcm we were so crazy.. We talked about so many things.. Obviously am the one who talked the most.. I even share with them the love stories of Mr. Pink & Mrs. Red.. *i instantly fall into tears, talking about them*

That night, we took so many pictures together.. Thou i am new to both Amir & Sufian but i know that i can be their good friend.. We have this so many things in common.. They love to cook too.. *that is, as per what Hisham told me* i should try soon..
Talking about pictures, i will upload them up if i am using my pc.. Whahaha.. Btw, that was my very own Sunday..

Thanks to Hisham for inviting me.. U'v been a good advisor to me.. U remind me of Nasrul.. Talking about Nasrul i wonder how is he doing.. Nas, hows teaching? *bowh kna correction ni krg my English*

As for Amir & Sufian, i love the two of u.. U guys are r0x.. Kmu jgn klahi lgi ah.. Amir, its good that there is jealousy in ur relationship.. At least u know that someone is care about u.. I miss those moment.. *kan nanges ku eyh*

If u guys planning to check in, do invite me jua ah.. Whahaha.. I love to kcau u guys tido jua.. But next time bring more chocolates jua ah.. Btw, that moment at OGH really sweet..

OGH, if u guys having new promotion please do let me know.. Otherwise we'll just crash into other people room.. Last but not least Vanda restaurant, ROXX!!

NOTE: the service was a bit slow but the food was so yummy.. OGH, u should contracted more good looking people.. Whahaha..


TUESDAY, 11 SEPTEMBER 2007
Stalking class: PART 1


OWH last week, me and some of my Life Best Friends planned to have this not stupid but crazy idea, to hold a stalking class? dont get me wrong, we people are not that desperate actually to stalk other people, but i so in love with this activities.. it comes with the thrills and fun? who is the best person to do it with, other than my very own Life Best Friends? The class were attended by January, April & May.. Actually March, June & July supposed to join us but again due to the hectic class, they miss the whole fun..

Whose idea was it at first? I cant remember actually but again i must say the master plan of the event was mine.. it happened that January loves this guy by the name of MIA so much and that MIA is having another girl now.. whahaha.. MIA and the girlfriend work at the same department (i repeat its not a supermarket, do i need to tell this?)..

Knowing her crazy idea, so i gave some brilliant suggestions.. the plan was:
1. Stalking September at UBD first..
2. Stalking MIA at his workplace: lunch next to his table, while he is having his lunch with the girlfriend..

Sounds great..

But sorry its almost just a plan as i hav no car to do the stalking activities.. Obviously, we cant stalk MIA using January's car.. Then thanks to May that she offered us to use her car instead..

January & May pick me up kinda bit early than what i was expecting, so at their arrival time at my house, i was just finished my shower.. sorry darling..
Then we went to that Mentiri area to stalk May`s boyfriend.. whahaha.. his car was there so we expect him still sleeping.. DONE!!

Next we went to that office of MIA.. on our way to his workplace the three of us listening to May`s CD.. whoa, what song is that again? "Terlalu mencintaimu" by Rossa, i guess.. we shared our opinion on the song`s lyric..

We arrived at his workplace before 12 noon, so we have to wait for him.. May`s parked her car somewhere not too close to his red car *to avoid him noticing us.. i mean, noticing January* but again not too far away that causing us to lose him.. whaha..
While waiting for him, we talked more about this MIA.. owh, i have no idea who he is.. i`v only seen his picture before.. (i repeat, his picture BUT NOT pictures).. at that particular time, there were these two guys in their formal government officer attire walking passed our car (opz, its May`s car).. The guy in stripes shirt was LAWA!! opz.. They drove ford and guess what, the driver waved at us.. (mcm mlambai ya).. whuhu.. But it would be much better if the passenger was the one who waves at us.. (note: the passenger is the young officer wearing the stripes shirt)..
ENOUGH!! we must stay focus on our target that was MIA.. Then soon after that, we saw him.. NO!! NO!! as being expected he`s going to have his lunch with the girlfriend.. we followed his car from behind..

due to some unexpected situation, we lost his track on our way to the Gadong area.. blame the heavy traffic for that.. for god sake we almost hit by another car (or we almost hit another car? i cant remember which is which.. it just too fast..).. Thanks to our crazy driver, May for saving our lives..

What a day? We lost him.. its just so true to call him MIA as in Prince MIA (missing in action)..

Then the three of us were so hungry then went to the Mall, for lunch at KFC.. this wasnt the plan.. FAIL!! but there was this one guy, nice one.. January & May were saying that the guy was LAWA but.... whahahah.. cian eyh dat guy but again he smiled at JANUARY..

After having that lunch, we went to UBD coz January was having a test that afternoon.. Cian jua January tu.. So April requested May to go around UBD looking for September`s car..

1. We went to the CH area, but NADA!!
2. We went to the FBEPS parking area, NADA JUA!!
3. We went to SHBIE parking area, NADA LAGI!!
4. We went to IPISOAS parking area, PUN NADA!!
5. We went to FOS/HEP parking area LAGI TIA NADA!!

FAIL AGAIN!!

Ended up, April & May plan to watch movie but no movie available around that time (2ish pm).. So we went to the Mall and go for lil-shopping.. April bought a new t-shirt & a sunglasses (a nice one as being picked by May).. Whoa, April was so sarcastic to the salesgirl..

Oh i almost forget, there were two guy stalking April & May at the Mall, they were cute in black but a lil bit too young for April & May, as May put it "Ikan Bilis-ish"..

Then the three of January, April & May meet up at Lee Loy Fatt and we talk about our day.. What a stalking class..

Few messages to be shared with my blog readers:

January: Droppin in to let u guys knw dt i miss u darls!! n i love u ols 2bits.. i njoy our moments 2gthr.. u r my pillar of strength.. hv byn der 4 me in tyms of need.. i cn never afford to lose u babes.. no matter wt i hpe we`l last..
Oh 2 April & May, tq yesterday.. i njoyd our adventure ish tym.. tho we n up losing our target, we gt dford guy waving.. haha.. tq 4riskin ur lyfs 4 me since we almst tlanggar.. May, u`r 1 of d gr8 craze drivers. kalah i daringnya. 2 March & June d gatherin? wen?

April: January, am loving it so much despite the fact that we were unable to get that Prince MIA of urs.. We almost hit another car.. May u r0xx on the road.. Tho the stalking lesson wasnt so successful but the lawa 'ford' passenger made my day.. :p Urm, the KFC guy was another good one but am still opting for the 'ford' passenger still.. Oh two guy who was stalking us.. Sioxx.. But sad to say they're ikan bilis as May put it.. It wud be much fun if March & June were also there.. July? Why should i bother ryt? whaha.. i need to ignore July as for now..

May: Babez, we`r alwys der 4 each otha evn during dhrs of peril, durin dslimin of our petite stmch o during its nlrgement (msa lmpuh 2 ah) :) n we're alwys der 4ech othr 4 another stalkin day as we had ysterday. i had fun as i alwz do wen i hngout w u guys, riskin our lyf..


SUNDAY, 09 SEPTEMBER 2007
Me and Music..


First Song: That`s Why by Michael Learns to Rock..

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop,

Second Song: Wait for U by Elliot Yamin..

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

Third Song: Burn by Nina Feat Christian Bautista..

do u wanna be an actor up in light
do u wanna be soldier and fight for love
do u wanna travel the world
do u wanna be a diver for pearls
or climb a mountain, touch the clouds above

be anyone u want to be
bring to life your fantasies
but i want something in return

i want u to burn
burn for me baby!
like a candle in my life
oh burn, burn for me, baby
burn for me!

are u gonna be a gambler and deal
are u gonna be doctor and heal
or go to heaven and touch God's face
are u gonna be a dreamer who sleeps
are u gonna be a sinner who weeps
or an angel under grace

i'll lay down on your bed of roses
to offer out my heart and soul
but in return

i want u to burn
burn for me baby!
like a candle in my life
oh burn, burn for me, baby
burn for me!

oh.. i want u to burn, baby.. oh..

laugh for me, cry for me
reach for me, lie for me
live for me, die for me

i want u to burn
burn for me, baby
like a candle in my life
oh burn, burn for me, baby
burn for me

i want u to burn
i want u to burn... for me baby!


Sunday, 09 September 2007
They were no longer together..


As of 7th Sept 2007, this is the very last part of Mr. PINK and Ms. Red conversation.. [i donno whether after this post there is more stories about the two of them]

HER RESULTS [RED's Results]:
i cnt lie hw hart break n sad i am nw bt am doin dz fo our own gud. am simply nt given up. i jz dnt wnt u to suffer even mor in d future. plz dnt tink as f we cnt be fwns. i cn awez b by ur side weneva u ned me. i wil alwez txt/cal u up cz im hpy to hv such a gud lover like u. promise me aftr all dt jz hpnd, we gt stronger. i ws actale wishin to raya-in w u. mm. f i matter to u den i gez, itd hpn. plz kep updatin me whateva ure up to. prmise to me dt we wont lose contact. i love u bt it hurts to c i break ur hart almost al dz wile. dz relationship cud n wud work f we cn b extra understndin, considerate, n patient. hpfully i will nt fade awy frm ur memories. cyg its hard fo me to let u go n i dnt wna lose u as of yet bt its better to be in a friend rlationshp, at least it never ends. m afred ul end up hating me n stuff. i ws countin days oso to meet u up b4. everytym u kn jumpa me, gawdh knw how eager n xcited i am. thx. i promise il mek u hpy weneva ure down o at tyms u ned me dou d situation is different now.

PINK:
Finally u said it out. wish i knew u months earlier. but its ok. an end of love commitment is not an end of a friend relationship..
thanks friend..

owh another mms from Ms. RED that a bit contradicting again.. why she requested for the relation to end but again she was saying that "dz relationship cud n wud work f we cn b extra understndin, considerate, n patient"

The word could and would as if she still wants the relationship to work.. Sorry if my comments are on Mr. PINK side..

Owh.. Mr. PINK be strong.. Btw, Mr. PINK wishes that Ms.RED will be happy with Mr. BLUE..

Sunday, 09 September 2007
RED is no longer with PINK..


*sighs* i just posted the conversation between them in the previous posting.. The conversation was held about two weeks ago but now i just received an MMS from PINK..
Am shocked.. No matter how much i cant believe it, but still i have to accept the fact that they are no longer together.. The Mr. PINK is no longer with Ms. Red.. Mr. PINK wanted me to shared these few messages of them.. [i dont wanna do it at first but i know Mr. PINK will be sad, if i fail to do so]

RED:
Hy. sorry f i offnd u w diz msg. No, u dnt deserve it. i sense its jst jealousy overwhelmin u. bt pls grasp me. its real complicated to be in my situation. at tyms im nt cnfidnt f i cn stnd any longer. i dnt wna hurt u cz i ws d hu gav u hope. i dnt wna mek u sad bt apparently i js did w/ot my will. i appreci8 evrythn u did fo me. its js dt, fo hw long g u wna suffer? it kills me to c u sacrifice to b d 2nd sdgkn u dserve a bttr ones than me. i knw luv is crazy as it gets stronger. protect ur feelins b4 i hurt u even mo. it kills me to kno m bein selfish all dz while. i dnt wnab bias bt sumtyms i dnt tink i cn make u hppy. hppy as in hpy dt every couple deserve to be. pls dnt get me wrong. i wanted to be w u bt at d sem tym i dnt wnt u to fel deserted evrytym m w hm *sighs* ure too gud to b w me. so wts d main point ov dz? i dunno. am puzzled. m soe f dz msg hurt u. plz dont cry & take me fo granted. am out of my mind reali.

PINK:
U got the point there. its for my own good. am glad at least u care about my feelings.

all this while, ur love is the main source of my strength but knowing this from u, as if u`r giving up now. its so not helping.

thanks that now u simplified the complicatedness of this relationship of us. seems to me that u just need me to seconded ur idea, for us to break up.

urm, a fren of mine said to me: "aint love makes people crazy". yes i agreed. it happened to me. never been in love like this before. but u`r simply the exception. never been the second but u gave me the opportunity to experience it. whether it is a good thing or bad thing, i so really dont know. thanks.

am so grateful that we are together despite the fact that i dont want to meet u at first. why is that? it is because from the start i know this relation wont works. but at least now i have almost nothing to be regretted coz i have done my very best to protect our relationship but of course my jealousy is too overwhelming.

if we didnt try it at the first place, i might say that i should have try.
"bowh, ada urg nyanyat", i just cant forget that.

u`r such a sweet lover and i dont know if i`ll be able to adapt my self to the life without u. tommorow is the 30th day we didnt see each other, but now i know the saying "absence makes the heart grows fonder" is so untrue.

i`l be missing the time that u teased me a lot. remembered that one day u said to me: "am urs yet u hasitated".

only gods knows how in the world u make me smiles just by reading ur msg-es, u make me laugh just by giving me a call. i guess i`l have no chance to celebrate the hari raya with u.

here i wont say my version of: i believe we should...........

i`l respect ur decision. thanks for the memories.

Thats about the first half of the MMS.. Hello, am not trying to be biased here but again being so closed to Mr. PINK makes thinking what actually went wrong in their relationship? Was it that jealousy of Mr. PINK?

The very last part of RED mms is a bit contradicting.. "soe f dz msg hurt u. plz dont cry & take me fo granted"

She is the one who wants to end the relationship but by saying "dont take me for granted" itself is as if the relationship is still on.. *am confused but does it really matters?*

Sunday, 09 September 2007
An Overwhelming Jealousy..


Dont ask me why am discussing about jealousy coz thing for sure, its an undeniably fact that am a man, full of jealousy.. But again this few conversation below is just a make-up conversation between a very loving couple [as of now, am not sure of the status of their relationship]..

Well, this couple is not an ordinary ones.. Their relationship started few months back (almost 4 months ago, i think).. I would introduced the girl as [RED] and her bf as [PINK].. Owh, did i mentioned she is also having another guy [BLUE] as her boyfriend?

Let me discuss this in the view of the PINK guy:
He has not been in a relationship for quite sometime as he still loves his ex very much.. One day, its happened that this one particular girl grabbed his attention but still he didnt to any action towards her despite the fact that the girl gave some "YES" gestures to him.. [let me remind u, the girl name is RED]

One day, RED asked PINK whether PINK wants to meet her or not.. At first, PINK unwilling to meet her, but again being so curious he agreed to see her that night.. That is the night that changed everything in his life.. Trust me, on the first night itself, they

KISSED!!

I believe i have said enough for the introduction.. The conversation are:

RED: (yawning) me sleepy dh. Wana sleep now. U tido th afta buat kaja atu. Nitey nite! Sleep tyt. *hugging u tightly under the covers* mwahz tc.
After almost 10 minutes, PINK tried to call his lover but the phone was engaged.. After trying to call her again, the phone was still engaged.. Then, PINK sent a text msg to RED.

PINK: Tido bnar or sum1 tepon u tu? Well, its ok.. put d blame to d
stupidity of dst server sja.. if bnar kn tido aga th.. nww, jgnth tgu my msg.. takut me tetido..

Then the so-called fight get started..

RED: Soe . me kn tido vnr2 ni. Tepon pun jap ja. Nvm lah if u nda caya me (sighing), lying is not reali my field. how cn I convince u kn? (sighing)

PINK: Its ok wa.. dfahami.. he got the exception to the rule power. Whahah. Nda kn jln p jln jua. Kn tido p btepon jua. Hehe. Its ok me nda mare.. bh tido th..

RED: Gawdh, cud u at least understands me? Me jln lastnyt n just now kna tepon coz its a gudnyt call.. Satisfied?

PINK: SATISIED!!

RED: What did I do kn? Np u tarus2 sarcastic to me? Bek g me gtau me jln uh. I didnt lie to u. u reali break my heart now. :( am so depressed. Thnx a lot.

PINK: U must be so sick of me. U dont even bother to mc me today. Mayb u need ur own time as for now.. its ok..

RED: My heart had been smashed. N now am re trying to heal up. I only expect one thing from u. hope it will change everything..

PINK: What? What do u expect from me? Dont expect too much. Great expectation leads to great depression.

RED: U know what u did wrong and u know whut to do when u do wrong. Oh well, nvm. Tc. Njoy ur day.

PINK: Am sorry!! Pls forgive me!!
RED: Cud u be more politer? Oh pls scratch that exclamation mark.. Am offended even mor yaknw

PINK: Owh aint it enuf? I made d 1st move to tgur u but oh forget it.. sorry..

RED: Oh I appreciate that u made d 1st move but plz dont take things for granted n dont expect me to forget things so easily. I have a fragile feeling. Harshness kills.
I know that being jealous is bad in a relationship but again based on the conversation and situation above, is it wrong for PINK to be so jealous? [remind you, he is not her first lover, he is an optional lover]

Sad to say but thats happened in a real world, where a guy is willing to be the second or as i put it, willing to be the optional lover just because his love towards her is so and very strong.. He tried his best to protect their relation despite the fact that he knows his girlfriend has another boyfriend and love the other boyfriend even more than she loves u.. SAD!! SAD!!

So is it a harm for the guy to get so jealous? urm, its up to the way u
perceived it..


SATURDAY, 01 SEPTEMBER 2007
Am so bored!!


1 letter from your name
~ F

1 thing that you are thinking.
~ what my love is doing now.. (bjln ya plg ni kalie)..

1 place you would like to be now.
~ next to my love..

1 thing that is infront of you.
~ the monitor..

1 name that is in your mind.
~ my love..

1 thing that makes you go mad.
~ my love..

1 thing that made your day today.
~ lunch with my A+ Friends..

1 thing that make you mad today.
~ nothing in particular..

1 thing that attracts you.
~ HOT people.. (u know who)..

1 thing that makes you sad.
~ Being alone.. Getting more carbs..

1 person you wish to see.
~ My love..

1 song that you just heard.
~ Separuh masa by Delima or The Lima (Gangstarz)..

1 movie that you had seen lately.
~ Ratatouille with my LIFE BEST FRIENDS..

1 guy/girl that attracts you lately.
~ Someone.. (batah plg udah.. my LBF tau tu.. laju th stalk ia)..

1 person you last seen.
~ Hisham..

1 person you last went out with.
~ Hisham..

1 person that you can't forget abt.
~ My ex.. ia kn blayar ni ke JEEDAH..

1 gift that you want to give to somebody.
~ My heart, sempena WORLD HEART DAY..

1 number from your hp no.
~ 8

1 thing that you can't forget abt last yr.
~ 2006..

1 thing about last night.
~ Another day without My Love..

Saturday, 01 September 2007
Right or wrong?


Still remember the time that i told u am gonna write something on FORGIVENESS?? sorry that am unable to do so at this particular moment as i forgot to bring wif me my pen drives.. ehehe.. but theres somethin to be shared on this topic actually..

Someone`s wrote in his blog about relationship and forgiveness, as if he wanted to provoke me to talk more about this two topics.. i`ll quote his posting as below:
Right or wrong?

Arguements .. *sighin* is it enough to say ure sorry? Or is it too much to say 'pls forgive me'? And Is it necessary to tell ur partner everytn eventhou its hurtful? Who is to blame? Those whos being truthful or those who perceives it in the wrong context? Am really puzzled. Whats wrong? Whats right? Should we stop bfore it bcmes worst? Or should we nt? *inhale deeply* sometimes i think being silent is the best solution to close the arguements. But will it work after all? A question that remains unrevealed..

whahaha.. isnt it totally provoking my topic? Well its kinda unfair if i didnt linked him to my blog.. click the following to link u to his blog: Mr. Provoke
need an arguement? well am not so good at it but thanks a lot.. it means that u do care to read my dear blog.. *winks*

Saturday, 01 September 2007
Me on the 1st Sept, 2007..


Last friend I saw: Hisham..
Talked on the phone: Dauz, my lil bro..
Text messaged: My love..
Ate with: My A+ Friends at Gdg Properties for lunch..

Today
I'm: miss my love one.. got jelous by someone.. (is it?)
Wearing: pink t-shirt, sma mcm Qmah mcm bjanji wa..
I was: Jelous but kajap ja..
Dislikes about tomorrow: its Sunday, my love grenti bjaur..

Favourite number: 174
Favourite movies: Ratatouille, watched with my LIFE BEST FRIENDS..
Am I missing someone: my love, my ex and Mr. Kasih.. whahaha..
Mood: insecure and full of jelousy..
Wanting: lots of cash & to be loved.. is that ever possible???


Q: What's bothering you right now?
A: Someone keep on texting without knowing who is the sender..

Q: The last place you went to?
A: Here at my grandparents house..

Q: Do you have any siblings?
A: Yes i do.. An elder sis, Hana (getting married diz Dec) & 2 annoyingly lovable younger brothers, Dauz & Opie..

Q: Do you smile often?
A: Yes i do & my friends say so..

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Sometimes..

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Urm am a chatter-box person.. So does it makes me friendly?

Q: What colour is the shirt you're wearing?
A: Now? its pink..

Q: What were you doing at 12 last night?
A: Sleep, waiting for a text msg from my love but nada.. Tetido ya..

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Not sure but i still remember that 1 thursday afternoon sometime last month.. I cried coz something reali hurts me..

Q: Do you get angry easily?
A: Nope.. i dont easily get angry but am full of jelousy..

Q: What are you about to do?
A: Finish my study soon enough to get a well paid job.. whahaha..

Q: Did you ever check your phone waiting for someone to call?
A: Always..

Q: Rate life as of right now. Over 10.
A: 7

Saturday, 01 September 2007
Malay posting by ME!!


Lama dah rasanya nda buat posting pkai ckap mlayu.. tak kn melayu hilang d dunia.. ehehe.. Whoa, tdi msa tghari siuk wa.. mkn rmai-rmai dgn kwn d Gdg Properties.. walaupun tdi atu nda smua yg dtg p siuk jua wa.. siuk? tdi atu SIUK BANAR psal ampir smua yg bnar-bnar ku windu ada wa.. bnar th durg atu, syg bnar durg kn aku jua wa.. ehehe..

sebelum jln tdi me ambil Qmah dlu.. siuk la bgosip japs dlm keta den Ka Sofie ada dgn anaknya (kiyut eyh).. lama nda jumpa tu mcm-mcm wa ceta tkuar.. terima kasih pada yg dtg tdi atu.. baik th ku sabut kali nama-nama bisdurang ani.. mana lah tau durg baca blog ku ani.. whahaha.. (nama-nama disebut berdasarkan susunan durg dtg tdi).. Qmah, Ka Sofie, Krul, Zatol, Jamz (ex galpren ku p ia dtg dgn boiprennya tdi Debit Card), Mona, Rahman (Mr.Kasih dgn galprennya Puteh), Hudz, Mirah & Apiz (Loving couple, aku suka ni durg ah p inda apa aku booking dh anak durg).. whahah.. brapa urg kn tu ah? baek th ku kira pakah, krg ada yg ktinggalan ada yg nyamal.. 14 urg eyh.. ramai jua panya.. aku cayang kamu smua..

lpas ni, plan kn sungkai togetha.. aku jua lgi yg tukang plan tu.. whahaha.. yatah tdi Mona msg aku lepas mkn atu.. Mr. Kasih pun ada jua msg tdi..
Mona: "Engkaulah Pengerat Silaturrahim"

Mr. Kasih: "update me nanti ah.. Reservekn seat utk me n Puteh jua lah ah.. Have a nice day"..

Adui, durg show off syg durg ah.. aku mana mau kalah ni.. malas th ku pgil ia Mr. Kasih lgi eyh.. whahaha.. *julur*

My August 2007..

THURSDAY, 23 AUGUST 2007
Updating the blog..


Oh yeah.. as being promised in the last posting.. here i am updating my blog on Thurs.. sorry this post will be short coz am so busy actually.. its almost quarter past 5pm.. ehehe..


Yesterday i skip sumthin just to spend my tym wif my best friends.. i love all of them.. we went for muvie.. RATTATOILLE.. NICE!! i`l give my muvie review in the next posting as this posting is meant to be very short..

So just a bit of infor here that my next posting will be about FORGIVENESS!! Whoa, is by saying "I am SORRY" is enough? So, i`l share my thought on it soon.. Nw, never expects that people will believe me, when i told people that am getting married.. whahaha.. i`l share some short stories wif all the blog readers..

THANKS for visiting my blog..

With Love,
Faiz-HS..


MONDAY, 20 AUGUST 2007
Kekasih Gelapku..


Owh!! am so glad that there is people who care to spend their time to visit my blog.. am also glad that my previous posting on "RELATIONSHIP" attracts people attention..
Last saturday nite, went to my ex Barbequed party.. it was fun, as i got the chance to see many new faces plus not to forget some old faces.. instead of spending tym wif the "kepulan of asap" i just stay inside the house, where i was able to update my FS and ofcoz my blog..

As usual i spend some tym wif my ex sis.. do some catching up.. its been so long i didnt make a stop at their place.. let past be past.. enuf of it..

Then yesterday (sunday), i woke up a lil bit early than every other sunday of mine.. ehehe.. i kill my tym by watching d tele.. it was plain boring sunday till d tym my frens called me up..

Fren: " Darl, mau kpantai? Ehehehe.."
Me: " Mana aja, but me mls b-usai.."

Whahaha.. so i joined them to Pantai Berakas.. Huh!! how i wish i had a can of light coke and a bag of Curry Twisties.. *bowh napa ku ingat psal ia atu?* Nyalih wa sna ah.. siuk wa especially wif noty bitchy frens being around me.. We stayed till around 4 pm then go to a fren`s houz at Lambak.. minta ajar masak ya eyh.. nda ya tau ku nyalih pakah.. whahahaha..

Mulanya kn ajar masak buttered chix but nda jadi coz kualinya inda dlm wa.. eheheh.. so takut it wont works so kmi buat agar-agar ja.. whahahah.. mun agar-agar smua urg pun pandai.. i loves da agar-agar it taste so yummy.. bowh, puji dri sendiri..

Nw, ptg tu dah sampai d umah i felt so tired.. dmam wa trus.. ampar ani wa.. tpaksa mkn ubat.. byk lgi tu.. den after tbangun tu panya pkul 9 dah.. kpisan.. den ada argument lgi dgn someone.. napa ya kn ah? Huh!! strezz jdinya.. dh pun dmam..

well, i beliv i wanted to shared wif everyone about the arguments but it will be in another posting of my bulletin board (mayb on thurs)..

Oh yeah, i wul like to personally thanks to Qmah for commenting my blog posting.. nw, babe still remember that i wanted to google up the lyrics of Ungu song? here is the lyrics.. i simply love it..

* Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
yg kucari slama ini dalam hidupku
dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
yg panjang dalam hidupku..
repeat

*Ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku
ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yg tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku..
Kekasih gelapku..


SATURDAY, 18 AUGUST 2007
Raffi Ahmad - Tergila-gila


Malam jadi siang, siangpun jadi malam
tidurpun ku tak bisa tenang
bila sedang jatuh cinta semua terasa indah
aku tergila-gila
Rasa di hatiku melilit makin erat
dan rasaku tak akan salah
ku yakin ini cinta aku sedang jatuh cinta
aku tergila-gila

reff:
Kini ku berjanji hanya untuk kita
sumpah mati akan kujalani
hatiku sedang tergila-gila denganmu
Malam jadi siang, siangpun jadi malam
tidurpun ku tak bisa tenang
bila sedang jatuh cinta semua terasa indah
aku tergila-gila
Rasa di hatiku melilit makin erat
dan rasaku tak akan salah
ku yakin ini cinta ku sedang jatuh cinta
ku tergila-gila

repeat reff
Aku berani hadapi apa saja
asalkan aku tetap denganmu
sungguh ku sedang tergila-gila
sungguh ku sedang tergila-gila denganmu


Saturday, 18 August 2007
Relationship!!


Urm i donno what to say actually but deep in my heart i know that i need to let this thing out of me.. it is all about relationship..

Am not an experts though but here i would like to share my thought on it..
So here is the start:

Am so glad that i got the chance to know the term "people differentiation" or "individual differences".. I did mentioned about this in my blog sometime long ago but here i wont talk much about other people.. I believe it is much effective if i am to put my self on the situation below..

Firstly, there is people who do not believe in relationship.. perhaps hates to be in relationship..

Faiz said: dulu yatah aku ni urangnya ah.. inda suka wa ada ikatan ani.. inda siuk.. malar kana kongkong.. kn ksana mlapor dlu.. kn ksini mlapor lgi.. ntah ah.. atu bab lapor-melapor, tup tup lupa melapor kana marah..

walhal ah if dlapor kekadang tu nda ya caya wa.. yatah mbari kn nipu tu.. dah ditipu krg, jdi kmarahan jua.. bru th kn ckap krg tu.. napa u tipu me? if u trus-trang kn mudah.. huh.. payah wa in relation ani..

Secondly, there is also people who very the in a relationship.. whahaha.. Dangerously in love.. i love it though.. knowing the bad side of the first type of person so i used to be the second type of person also..

Faiz said: urm inda suka relationship ani payah jua.. antah ah.. kekadang tu tani rasa tani ni mainkn urang sja wa.. which is bad.. yatah timbul jua niat di hati kn ada steady partner..

Astah!! aku sendiri ani wa inda pernah pcaya yg aku ni kn syg kn urg lain bnar-bnar.. hahaha.. skalinya i met diz one person.. mulanya kwn ja but ia ni caring sgt wa.. suka jua ku tu..

ia ani perfect lah.. suka banar ku.. kekadang tu bebulang wa inda bjumpa coz ia kaja outstation p still we`re very loving couple.. yatah mcm lagu "tergila-gila"

klau dlu mc ani wa, mls th ku.. apa th lagi kn msg.. tapi eversince knal ia.. adui kol nda pernah putus.. msg apath lagi.. everytime ia d brunei ni grenti mms tu if ia kmana-kmana.. well in exchange ia pun mau me update ia if kn kmana-mana..

oh yeah, talking abt msg ani wa.. bkarih lgi tu disalin ke buku smua msg nya ah.. huh.. i still keep it.. awu, yatah ada diz one time my hp tu corrupted wa memorynya.. i cried lyk hell.. i lost many pictures jua..

yatah ada diz one tym i went to rumahnya wa.. i found dat ia pun do the same thing.. napa ia sweet atu kn? kn nangis th plg ku nah..

Thirdly, a person who has been bruised by their lover..

Faiz said: ani pun pernah jua tjadi ni arahku.. mcm aku ni stia arh ia.. so am expecting ia kn buat the same thing jua la.. apa kn? wat u give u get back wa..
yatah, kekadang its true that people say, when u love someone do not love them 100% coz afraid that the relationship wont works.. Yatah mcm burung wa.. walau ada sayap, jgn terbang terlalu tinggi.. kalau jatuh.. sakit!! sakit!! sakit!!

whahaha.. ani th kekadang penyebab urg ni mls dh kn ada ikatan.. kekadang lagi durg ni la yg memainkn perasaan urg lain.. sedihkan..

Fourthly, person who do not deserve to be in relationship..
Faiz said: ada jua ni insan yang inda pedah-pedah kn ada relation ani.. urg bebf ia kn bebf jua.. urg bgf, ia kn bgf jua.. pedah pedah wa.. inda ku pernah suka ni.. urg cani ah..

arah tani ia ckap ia miss tani.. arah urg lain sama jua text yg dpakainya ah.. sudahlah.. am tired of this sort of people..

u know what, u dont deserve to have me.. hahaha..

lastly, there is also people who willing to sacrifice himself for the love one..

Faiz said: hahaha.. aku lah insan ini.. ku sangup bkorban utk insan yang ku sayang.. oh, sungguh tidak siuman!! knapa ku sanggup diduakan? sungguh mengherankan.. sungguh bkn aku insan itu..

SO NOT ME!! Urm, but lebih menghairankan aku lah insan itu..

Oh tuhan, tabahkanlah hatiku ini.. jika betul dia diciptakan untukku.. bahagiakanlah kehidupanku bersamanya.. Jika dia bukan diciptakan untukku, permudahkanlah impianku untuk melupakan dirinya..

By Faiz-HS..


FRIDAY, 17 AUGUST 2007
Things for sure am back..

Whoa.. Iski eh.. Rasanya mcm kn lompat-lompat wa coz my blog mau dh.. Ehehe.. Batah dh nda update my blog coz my postings nda dpt publish wa.. Ehehe.. Nah, ani biar ia sangal blog ani mlayan.. Dulur ya.. Whahaha.. Bowh, napa posting ani mcm nda btantu ani? So not me eyh.. I need my writing skills back.. Huhuhu.. Over tia plang me ah..
Lets try to do it in a right way.. Do not use different language in one sentence.. No "MELAYU" in English.. Nada "ENGLISH" dalam Melayu.. Whahaha.. Weird eyh..

I wondered what should my first entry all about.. Am simply clueless.. I need something to start with..

Owh its damn late now, need a rest.. Will be updating my blog tomorrow.. No worries..
Tdi Rahman told me that he is not feeling very well today.. So to Rahman, u take care dear.. Jgn lupa mkn ubat..

Nw, today i'v received some messages but unable to reply those messages.. Am so very sorry.. Its something which cant be avoided.. I hope u do understand my situation here..

Congratulations to those who gets a good results in their Cambridge June exam.. To those who will be sitting for tests or exams, be prepared.. Best wishes from me.. All the best of luck to all of u..

Owh, am missing so many people now.. Last but not least, i'd dedicate a song by Romance named "Ku ingin kamu" to u guys..

I almost forget.. Congratz to those who has been accepted to further their studies at UBD, UNISSA, ITB and abroad..

My July 2007..

TUESDAY, 10 JULY 2007
July? Tym to be broked!!


Am almost broke now!!

My May 2007..

SUNDAY, 27 MAY 2007
Whoa.. Its been so long..


Its been so very long didnt get da chance to update my blog.. Windu eyh.. Ehehe.. Well, am back now.. *smiles*

Urm, to start diz whole new me.. I'l start of wif da reality teve show.. Stil rmemba sometime 3 mths ago.. I posted a post on Akademi Fantasia and American Idol? Well, da season of both programmes had come to an end last week..

As fo AF5, Mila was crowned to b da new champ.. Da 1st ever female champ.. Am so lovin it.. My Dafi was eliminated during da 8th cncert.. *sighs*

As fo American Idol, i simply luv it frm da start.. Da top 6 finals, are my fav.. My Blake went second, only to da young talented Jordin Sparks.. *winks*
Urm, now am lovin da new channel 76.. E!! Whahaha..

Apa lgi ah? Btw, kinda frustrated coz Liverpool FC lose to AC Milan.. *sighs*
Will giv u daily reports on my activities.. Stay in tune..


Sunday, 27 May 2007
Lyf: wasnt as easy as 123 & wasnt as beauty as photo.. *sighs*


Dats simply how lyf goes.. It wasnt as easy as 123 and it wasnt as beauty as photo as well.. *sighs*

Ppl owez says dat we must plan things: a fail to plan is a plan to fail.. But its juz situation dat lyf doesnt go da way we plan it to be..

For example: i want to be wif dat person, make an effort to be wif dat person and hoping dat da rlationship wil works But.. There's da but part, it might not works despite wat i'v done fo dat person..

As a conclusion, dun xpect to much.. Coz da plan might not b practical.. Planing is juz not enuf.. Therefore, lyf isnt as easy as 123 nor it is as beauty as photo.. Dont takes things fo granted.. Appreciate those things ard u..


THURSDAY, 03 MAY 2007
I dun lyk u, FS..


Fs, i dun lyk u as much as i used to.. Dun get da reason why, all my latest postings could not b displayed.. Am simply ANNOYED!!! Offer me a better system..

My April 2007..

SATURDAY, 21 APRIL 2007
Be re-activate bloggins afta a month of silence..


Whoa sbulan dh panya inda bloggin ani.. Wil reactivate bloggin soon.. Catch ya soon.. Byk kn d update dlu.. Whahaha..


Saturday, 21 April 2007
Re-bloggin soon.. Exactly a month today.. Mwahz..


Askum.. Whoa.. Dlm tak d sedari dah sebulan saye tdk mengeposkn apa-apa druangan ini.. Rindu jugak kekadang.. Tapi itu lah hakikat yg harus dterima apabila tugasan yg dberikan smakin btambah.. Kekadang tu timbul rasa males tapi mungkin inilah liku-liku, reranjau mahupun onak-berduri yg perlu dtempuh sbgai seorang pnuntut.. Pnuntut? Rsanya tlalu murah bunyi pkataan tsebut.. Biar saye memanifestasikan pkataan tsebut dgn pkataan plajar atau mungkin juga pkataan mhasiswa..

Whahaha.. Ntah la.. Ku rsa ada baiknya ku hentikan seketika jari-jmariku ini drpd terus bkerja.. Ku perlukn suatu ktenangan utk melahirkn buah bicara yg lbih menarik..

Slama ketidak aktifan ku ini, dh tlalu byk pkara yg tjadi.. Agak sukar utk dpkatakn satu persatu tapi apa yg pasti saye akan mlaporkn beberapa situasi dan insiden yg mninggalkn kesan yg amat mdalam di hati saye..

Ku mrasa bhagia dan pastinya kesibukkan slama sbulan itu sguh berbaloi.. Ku tak akn pernah menyesalinya.. Nantikn isu slanjutnya..

Mwahz.. Epi bestfriend's day to ol.. *winks*

My March 2007..

THURSDAY, 22 MARCH 2007
Will stop blogging for a while..


Juz a bit of info here dat will stop blogging fo a while now.. Am bz wif lyf at da moment.. Will not talk abt luv lyf in da near future coz i'v nothin to b shared abt luv.. Derz juz to much luv to be talked abt..

Luvin u u u and u.. Thanx to ol my blog silent reader.. Will b activ bloggin diz April..

Rmember ppl.. April da month of LOVIN me.. Ehehehe..

WEDNESDAY, 14 MARCH 2007
Inda tau kn post apa..


well am bored now.. so bored la.. as promised diz post will be sortta long post but again, how can i write many things if me myself dunno wat shud be posted here? haiya.. so confusin eyh..

well actually, i`v lots to write in my mind bt again how can i put those things here.. shud it be according to da tym it had happened? shud it be based on my love life? shud it be regardin da reality TV show.. shud it be about my bestfriends? huhuhu.. so many to be covered in today post.. when i say its too many, it means DAMN
SO MANY.. ehehe.. am confused now.. ehehe..

Perhaps i`d started dz post wif life in da hospital.. wat? nada pun dlm list di atas.. ehehehe.. see its hard to do things as being planned.. ok, i`v been warded fo almost a week (till 10th march) with o proper reasoning.. hate being in da hospital, it made me useless.. hahaha.. my daily routine evryday ard 9am, went to da koperasi to buy newspapers and mags.. hahaha.. boring sgt jua udh tu.. (bkirim novel p nda kna blikan)..

Mcm me ckap tdi idup d spital tu boring sesgt but on da otha hand (klau ada 2 tanggan la ah), i luv da attention given to me and to diz i would love to say my appreciative thanx to many ppl..

To name a few, Nurul Azimmah (nurul), Ak. Hishamuddin (isham), Nabillah (navella), Hajidah (jeedah).. BOWH, NYALIH KU EYH.. Mlez kn mentioned yg lain.. pham-pham ja ah.. Nw, a very sorry to my dear luv Ejah.. ehehe.. hope u dun mind..
Urg ckap gambar bleh ceritakan segalanya so, will upload those pics.. hahaha.. talkin abt pics, tym boring tu sperti biasalah bgambar sendiri.. whahaha.. chewah.. nada kraja pakah anak sorang ni)..

Ceta ke-dua abt diz whole reality TV show thingie.. last week, i missed da American Idol.. rugi eyh, hahahaha.. nda tliat plg blake lewis.. but again my 5 contestants are still in da show.. how abt diz week? ca they survive da challenges? ehehe.. only times kno.. blake lewis, chris richardson, mellinda dolittle, lakisha & Jordin Sparks.. ehehe.. a long way to go..

Am done wif da American Idol den let starts on da 5th Season of Akademi Fantasia.. whoa.. isn` it big? 16 contestants fo da 1st tym ever wif Roslan Aziz as da Academy Principal.. am hopin fo a better yea.. ehehe.. am not saying dat da previous one isn`t gud.. but things fo sure it isn`t great!!

well, its still very early fo me to make any predictions.. to choose 5 from dat 16 ppl is juz bit too impossible as NOW is concerned.. but do love diz one guy SO VERY DAMN MUCH.. shud i mentioned his name? its very obvious i think.. outta 10 ppl talkin abt diz AF, 7 of dem ckap dat "i lyk him too".. hahaha..

DAFI.. GADAFI.. KIYUT EYH.. (sure thing i`ll upoad his picto oso later).. hahaha.. DO VOTE FO HIM.. send ur vote msg to 8885555.. ehe..

Nyalih eyh.. mls dah kn smbung.. mayb len kali th sambung thoz otha chapter of my lyf.. ehehe.. chewah.. ada chapter lgi tu.. talkin abt relationship wif `77-78` will on diz saturday edition.. need to analyse many things 1st..


SATURDAY, 10 MARCH 2007
Xhausted~


Was discharged from da hospital yesterday noon.. Ptg went to da mall wif family n had our dinner sna jua..

Nw, my next post wud b a long post.. Juz to fully cover da whole boring week dat i had.. Lotz to b shared wif u ol..

Stay in tune..


THURSDAY, 08 MARCH 2007
Kirim NOVEL pun nada wa..


Kirim NOVEL pun nada wa.. Bored in Ward 21 Bed 21..

Day 4.. So bored.. Tdi kn kna kuarkn p nda tia jdi.. Silahau bnar eyh.. Instead now da doctor installed a machine ON my body..

Whoa i miz 'A' lotz.. Ia ilang ntah kmana.. Nw, urg ah.. Bkirim NOVEL p nda kna blikan.. Ehehe.. Karitz.. *hugs* Jgn kamvang ani wa..

Hopin bleh blik by Sat coz i miz my tele jua.. Missed A.I oredy but i dun wanna miss da upcomin season 5 A.F.. 'Fantasi jadi Realiti'..


WEDNESDAY, 07 MARCH 2007
Expecting da unexpected!!


Urm, da usual checkins started ard 4ish.. Went fo U/s twice today.. Cnt dey do it once?

Mlm rmai urg mlawat.. Reali appreciate it.. Even Zam (bibi TYRA) & Syaf (NICOLE) were oso ere.. Riuh wa satu wad.. Zam, i owe u diz tym.. Tq, beb..

Moved to a new bed.. Ward 21 Bed 21.. Ehehe.. Anotha borin day.. Da doctor told me, i'd b kuarkn diz Sat.. Meaning i'l not b givin any comment on diz week A.Idol.. *sigh*


TUESDAY, 06 MARCH 2007
Day: 2.. Floor: 3.. Ward: 22.. Bed: 18..


Day: 2.. Floor: 3.. Ward: 22.. Bed: 18.. Thanx to ol da visitors.. A long-distance hug fo u ol.. Ehehe..

I've been warded fo 2 days now.. Am mizin my claz & my doctor.. :P

Early in da mornin (4ish) da nurse woke me up & made s0me checkins..

Blood Test again ard 8ish den went to da cardiology & da radiology centre/center (whatsoeva it is) to check my lung.. Bored..

Ptg, doin nutin.. Tido.. Mlm rmai urg dtg.. Tq ah.. Ani kna suruh posa coz esuk kn Ultra Sound.. Mcm kn branak plg.. Ehehe.. Cont...


MONDAY, 05 MARCH 2007
Hospitalized~


Its monday.. Didnt turn up fo my lecture today.. Reason? Hahaha.. Syukri kn bwa jln n liat wyg.. Wawawa..

Tdi ptg got xcident.. Syuk nda pandai drivin kali.. Ehehe..

So here i am, kna tahan d spital.. It doesnt reali bad plg.. Wil upload my new pix soon..

Nw, urg d spore ah.. Ada my novel? Am waitin.. Ehehe.. Marks & Spencer choc jua ah..
Nda wa, juz hopin u to b ere in 1 piece.. :P


SUNDAY, 04 MARCH 2007
A long distance call from Brissy~


Sunday text:
A: Online ya.. Hehe..
Me: Kamvang mana u? Inda pun ada rh my online list.. Kna block me kh? Wawawa.. Nda u online?
A: Me offline msa ni.. Bhapa jua me kn block u? Krg sja tani online.. Ani me msak..
Me: Offline panya.. U msak apa? Suapkn me ah.. Ehe..
A: Kuar tia dri msn..
Ehehe.. Mlm ia buat long-distance kol dri Brissy.. Juz to say gud nite.. Suweet.. Ehehe.. *winks* Tq..


SATURDAY, 03 MARCH 2007
Wantin to kno more abt '77-78'..


Its been a week, i got in touch wif '77-78'.. Seemed to me dat we reali need to kno one and anotha (derz lyk a spark / is it wat ppl named chemistry?)..

Was babysitting my cuzen kids.. Tiring but was fun.. I luv kids.. Went to da book fair again.. Bought sumthin..

Watched Epl Lfc (my fav) vs Mu at CB, gdg.. Damn!! Lfc lost by a last minute goal at Anfield by O'Shea.. Am sad.. :'( Uwaa.. Uwaa..

FRIDAY, 02 MARCH 2007
Hav i guessed it ryt? Wat ya hav to say? (Shyunk, its been a week now)..


Its been a week now, my without my shyunk.. we'r juz physically apart tho but i juz cant help it.. I want u to be alwez wif me.. Batah jua Shyunk valek eyh..

Well again, to start off my posting, i`d talked abt American Idol top 20 show (both fo da male + female session).. Wont discussed much abt diz week episodes..

Wednesday, male session:
Its a better week fo da male contestants, even da judges said dat all da male contestants hav stepped it up diz week..

Da reviews given to my chosen 3 guys:
Simon claimed dat Blake Lewis performance was a copycat of da original artist whom i dun kno.. Well to me, his "virtually insanity" performance dat nite was a bit too turn off.. I myself dun reali lyk his performance.. yea.. Its dull.. Diz week he failed to HOOKED me.. hahaha.. I need a HOOKER!!

Chris Richardson performance ("geek in da pink") sounds gud.. Not much difference from last episode in term of song selection.. But, mayb juz mayb datz wat he`s into.. hahaha.. Simon said dat Chris's performance is da best by miles..
Nicholas Pedro sang "fever" dat nite.. It wasnt great but to me its gud.. i can feel his emotion in dat song esp as da song was especially dedicated to his galfie.. I simply luv his husky voice..

Fever - lyric
Never know how much i love you
never know how much i care
when you put your arms around me
I give you fever that's so hard to bare..

You give me fever
when you kiss me
fever when you hold me tight
Fever
In the morning
Fever all through the night..

Sun lights up the day time
moon lights up the night
I light up when you call my name
and you know i'm gonna treat you right..

You give me fever
when you kiss me
fever when you hold me tight
Fever
In the morning
Fever all through the night..

Thursday, female session:
Lakisha Jones sang "Midnyt train to Gorgia".. Its gud but am not agree wif Simon.. He was saying dat Lakisha looked colourful.. Damn!! She wasnt colorful lerr but bright.. hahaha.. Yea, to some extend i do agree dat she looked old-fashioned.. hahaha..
Dat nite Melinda Doolittle sang "My funny valentine" and dat particular song was dedicated to her two bezfren.. She claimed dat both her frens play a major roles in her lyf.. 1 act as a vocal instructor and da otha as da fashion advisor.. Ol in ol, she was fab dat nyt..

"Reflection" by Jordin Sparks.. All da judges luv her performance.. She's gud fo a 17 years old gurl.. But it wasnt her best..

Friday, results nyt :
(earlia today), four contestants has been knocked out namely Nicholas and AJ for da male.. While on da otha hand, Alaina and Leslie fo da female.. Its a surprise.. Ppl were not voting based on da contestants singing competencies.. hahaha..

I bliv Antonella and Sanjaya shud be da one to be knocked out.. hahaha.. Its up to da voters.. Anyway, da song "Feelin gud" has been cursed.. hahaha..

In conclusion, am left wif my 5 contestants without Nicholas Pedro in da list..

Will i hear more husky voice from Nicholas Pedrio?

Need sumthin fresh from Blake Lewis.. No COPYCAT (if Simon is ryt)..


Friday, 02 March 2007
Presentation on MAURITIUS!! (i luv da attention!!)..


Urm, as usual it takes me time to start up my post.. Derz lots to be said but again how can i put all those things into words? Well, gonna start wif m wednesday afternun.. hahaha..

Has to do diz short presentation.. Trust me am not a great presenter (not even a gud one).. wawawa.. Dat afternun, i`v selected Mauritius for my country, wher i`v to talk abt Mauritius..

Damn hell, how can i talk abt Mauritius if i myself havent been der? Hahaha.. Perhaps juz perhaps, i'v choosen Mauritius after seeing Mawi havin fun der.. hahaha..
MAURITIUS = MAWI RICHES.. hahaha..

I havent close to my point yet.. I started da presentation quite well actually (i think).. I talked abt 1 of da interesting place dat made available fo da tourists.. Its da Uniquely Beautiful Seven Colour Earth.. I kno it sound silly but interesting.. But, how in da world i cudnt imagined derz such a place in da world..

Isnt it nice.. Whoa.. MESMERIZE.. Hahaha.. Well, afta quite sumtym i simply lost my track and start talkin bullshit.. hahaha.. How in da world ones can attracts tourists by saying dat by being to Mauritius dey'll feel lyk home coz dey'll find it very easy to find foods overther..

God, i even mentioned dat SALTED FISH are also available overther.. Hahaha.. But, things fo sure i'v try my best.. Wawawa..

A fren of mine was saying: " i dun wanna spend thousands over a SALTED FISH ".. Hahaha..

Yesterday mornin, was havin my Fav. Lecturer Mz. Azey Clazz.. Its not as fun as it alwez be.. We discussed abt Decision Making.. Whoa.. Its sounds boring but trust me she got da ability to arouse my interests.. Hahaha..

i knew dat ppl ways of thinkin are different, and again dat differences makes ppl decides things in a very different ways.. She stressed out dat, even in a situation wher ppl havin a problem, given da same information tends to approach da problem in a different ways.. hahaha..

Enuf, wont talk too much abt da lecture.. Will update diz post some otha time.. Need to move on to otha post (i think).. *smiles*

Might beneficial fo me to add ere dat i dun turn up fo my aftanun lecture.. Kes kekenyangan msa lunch.. Hahaha..


Friday, 02 March 2007
Lost without U.. (Shyunk, i`ll be lost without u)..


Robin Thicke - Lost Without You
I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

Tell me how u love me more
And how u think I’m sexy baby
That u don’t want nobody else
U don’t want this guy u don’t want that guy u wanna
Touch yourself when u see me
Tell me how u love my body
And how I make u feel baby..

U wanna roll with me u wanna hold with me
U wanna stay warm and get out of the cold with me
I just love 2 hear u say it
It makes a man feel good baby
Tell me u depend on me
I need To hear it..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

Baby you’re the perfect shape
Baby you’re the perfect weight
Treat me like my birthday
I want it this way I want it that way I want it
Tell me u don’t want me To stop
Tell me it would break your heart..
That u love me and all my dirty
U wanna roll with me u wanna hold with me
U wanna make fires and get Norwegian wood with me
I just love To hear u say it
It makes a man feel good baby..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

'Cos you may tell me every morning
Ooooooh Alright babe
Aaah yeah
Oh baby
Oh Darling
Ahh yeah..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

I’m lost without u
Can’t help myself
How does it feel
To know that I love u baby..

Ooooh Yeah
Oh baby
Oh darling
Ah yeah.. Right..
Oh baby
Oh darling
Oooh Hoo baby..
All right, right right..


THURSDAY, 01 MARCH 2007
Its TRUE.. ppl tends to change.. changes make ppl diff..


Ntah ah.. Am very clueless kn post apa today.. Bowh, as if am posting diz post juz fo da sake of posting.. Wawawa.. Anyhow i`l carry on wif my post tho.. (no one will stop me).. ehehe..

Well, actually hav a replacement claz today but i dun turn up fo da claz.. Malez sesgt wa.. I kno plg dat cute sum1 will be there.. hahaha.. Nda jua pedah wa.. Malez kn ckap.. So here i am updating my blog ..

Today, i wanna talk abt ppl differences.. hahaha.. Mcm one of my unit th plg, talking abt individual differences.. (am not gonna talk abt it)..

On da previous posting, i did say dat i`v accidentally met my luvly fren Aiman (Aiman Faiqah to be xact).. I`v commented dat she looked different from da last tym..

As far as da posting is concerned, her response on my comment was dat: Wat do U mean different? Sama jua lakat except dat Im berisi-er nw haha

Hahaha.. Cute eyh.. Ntah ah.. Actually didn't looked dat berisi-er plg.. Hahaha.. Ntah, am not sure plg dat she`s looked differs in wat way.. Mayb, juz mayb its becoz she got da look dat ppl in luv has.. Hahaha.. Adakh? Is der any difference between ppl in luv and ppl not in luv.. If der is any, do let me kno.. Hahahah.. How abt me? Am i or i dun? Wawawa :p

Here's photo of me n aiman, which was taken a yea bck.. Whoa.. Lama tu.. Kn cri diz pic smula pun takes me a day.. Hahaha.. (over)..

Anyhow, da 2nd pic was grabbed from her fs account actually.. Try to hav a look and analyze da pic.. whoa.. She's alwez be in da left part of da pic.. Any reason? hahaha.. Sama wa habitnya dgn sya`afe BAR..

Waitin fo my comments on da 2nd episode of Season 6 American Idol? Will let u guys kno, soon afta da gurl session.. Wat i can say ere is dat, derz mixtures of comments fo da boys session (shud i use d term guys instead?).. ehehehe..
Mizin my shyunk..